I miss Renee

Thursday, January 26, 2006 clivia 0 Comments

My sister is Renee. She’s four years younger than I am….and we look nothing alike. I’d like to think our personalities are similar, but they’re not. We’ve grown tremendously close in these last years…in fact I don’t function too well without her.

Of all the people in the world that I can understand or can understand me, it’s her. She may not understand the motivations behind my feelings, but she knows what is WITHIN my personality and can predict my responses and moods and reactions.

It’s the same with me. She is not a difficult person to understand…..more like complex….intricate….something that escapes even our mother sometimes.

People believe its something that distances her from other people. If they knew her…they would know that her distance… is her reaching out to you. She steps away when she needs you to step close. Strange? She is quite capable of coming out of whatever funk she’s in. She can more than adequately take care of herself and make hard decisions. And without a doubt she will do what her heart tells her to.

But the “mood’ is an indication. And, depending on the situation….and HOW WELL YOU KNOW HER…you “choose’ to approach and probe, or …jus leave her alone. She’s fiercely loyal to those she care about….and like me, is emotionally devastated when human beings turn out to be …you know…humans.

Anyways…I missed her today…again. I need a kick in the butt….she’s good at those